UGH

i have a fitness center appointment tommorow at the courage center. i can remember when i went to the fitness center at the courage center before (a long time ago), they stuck me on this stupid machine where all you do is push and pull your legs back and move your legs on the machine (nu-step) and that was all that i did there, it was easy as hell and i don't really see any benefits to that waste-of-time-bullshit. they can't even get me appropriate-physical therapy BECAUSE MY INSURANCE IS TOO DAMN CHEAP.
maxine made a smart remark today to me when she was taking me to the bathroom. i had sweatpants on and they had a drawstring in them- which was tied. when she was transferring me and i remind her that my pants have a drawstring in them and they should be untied but she doesn't listen and just goes and tugs at the pants and starts pulling them down without untying them. i raise my voice and say, "HEY! I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU THAT THESE HAVE A DRAWSTRING IN THEM, SO YOU NEED TO UNTIE THEM OR YOU'LL STRETCH THEM OUT. I DON'T HAVE MONEY TO KEEP BUYING PANTS AFTER YOU GUYS RUIN THEM." and maxine says to me in a smart tone, "well the way you be goin to the mall you act like you do." who the fuck asked her to be my checkbook? i don't go to the mall that damn often. she was just looking for an excuse to be too lazy to simply take a few seconds to untie my damn sweatpants, cunt. i told my grandma about what she said about me acting like i have money to buy more pants after they ruin them and my grandma said, "well.. i thought maxine was the nice one.. guess not." i figured that out a long time ago. i told the nurse about the sweatpants situation and her saying the way that i go to the mall- i act like i have money to buy more pants after they ruin them, and he tried to defend her by saying that she was probably just being sarcastic. he just don't have the balls to say anything to her about it. he don't want to lose her as a worker, so he won't say anything to her about it.